<3 <3 thank you love! i think nicole richie definitely copied me somehow. that’s possible right? i followed you because of trust in lauren and others and seeing your 1d posts and *resonating* and then *resonating* even more re. trauma and your activism. <3 <3
i’m so glad as well! i’m generally quite bad about remembering why i followed people initially but it was definitely enjoyable watching your decline into the 1d trash heap and also your animal and life blogging are lovely!
you can do the thing where you tell me why you followed me/why you still follow me if you want~~
To all the Tumblr users who tend to use tags very liberally:
Let’s play a game.
Type the following words into your tags box, then post the first automatic tag that comes up.
you, also, what, when, why, how, look, because, never
i guess i’m learning to ask for what i need? i would like to not feel instant shame spirals and huge amounts of guilt every time i do though? i was telling a friend the other day (yesterday when everything was too much) that my brain keeps pulling this neat trick on me, that i’ll, for example, think about how i’ve been hurt by someone and that it’s ok and reasonable for me to feel hurt and to have asserted my needs in relation to the situation, and my brain will turn that reassurance into it actually being me lying to myself about what’s really happened, what i’m allowed to have and ask for. i am functioning on near zero trust of my own experiences and needs at the moment. if i try to reassure myself that it’s ok, i immediately feel like that reassurance is a lie i’m telling to myself. how do you reassure yourself with that kind of nonsense happening in your brain?
my brain just told me, ‘it’s not nonsense, you are lying to yourself’. what is this? is this a thing? is this part of the process of learning to articulate your needs without guilt!? i don’t see how? i’ve never felt guiltier.